After my run yesterday with my colleagues, we were sitting down at the coffee corner enjoying Nasi Lemak (yes, I know it is sinful to take such especially after a run, but I was really hungry and the food was free). We were talking about raising kids and how unkiasu (if there is such a word) I was.

Then we were talking discussing about how the environment will affect the kids well being and how it will mould their character and future.

So then I was sharing with my colleague how competitive my school days was when I can’t afford to lose to anyone, though I didn’t really work that hard. But being with those bookworms, really make me study alittle more than others.

Then my colleague suddenly told me, “No wonder you are a workaholic!” Haha, I was like “Am I?” Actually Jingyi also told me I am one. But for me, I don’t think I am one, but rather it is the responsibility. I thought, if I’m tasked to do a particular assignment, I should give it my best and do it with the best efforts put in, cause ultimately, the end product will not only reflect about myself, but my team and my unit as a whole.

I was asked during my recent retreat what makes me want to work and motivate me learn. My answer was fear. The fear that if anything happens, people will look at me as the resource person and if I can’t answer, it will not reflect well on it. And my boss told me, “That’s self-motivation!”

I got to admit his courage for nominating himself for the award and it really paid off after his persistence. But seriously, when you finally get it, I don’t think there is a need to tell me the rubbish and stuff like, “I don’t get a chance anymore the next time” etc.

I think the awards available are always there, but its more on your capability, whether will your bosses recognise you to get it. And ever since the day I knew this colleague of mine who have nominated himself, I told myself that I’m glad that it was my boss who have nominated it. And I don’t understand why must he go around telling people that he is competing with me and this is his last year.

Haiz, maybe this is life, some people like fame some people doesn’t. Some people like to make known things that they’ve done, some people don’t.

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Urghh, after having high hopes that I will pass my IPPT today, sadly enough, I failed again and I will have to go for the next attempt next Monday cause I just ran 24 secs more for my 2.4km run.

So how do I comfort myself? Firstly, I made a tremendous improvement of 2mins plus for the run, I didn’t walk at all for my run and at least, I’m not the last to come back (in fact I think I was the top 20 and please, there were more than 20 runners).

What am I going to do now? Continue to attend the Mass Remedial Training for this week to be more prepared.

Pls pray for me that I will pass next Monday.